How an involuntary stress reaction could provoke someone into violence
I don’t remember when exactly I became aware of it but I have a few memories where my physical safety was at risk because of it.
When I am in distress I smile involuntarily.
As a child I lived in a high stress environment, I was not able to defend myself and certainly didn’t have any knowledge on how to diffuse the stress through healthy coping mechanisms. Somewhere along the way my body subconsciously learned that smiling was one way to relieve stress.
Unfortunately smiling at someone who is angry at you only inflames them further, but since I am unaware of what I am doing it is very difficult to change my expression.
My earliest memory of being consciously aware is during a beating, he said “It looks like you haven’t had enough yet, I’ll wipe that smile off your face…” I remember thinking I’m not smiling am I? But I was…
Later on when I started working I remember a very unpleasant exchange with a customer at the till, I could see he was on the brink of violence, he said to his wife, “She’s making fun of me look at her smiling.” I didn’t know I was doing it.
Another time whilst parking I clipped a motorcyclist making him fall off his bike at slow speed, I quickly got out of the car to see if he’s…
